I know I started this blog with the intention of being weirdly and deeply personal here but my better judgement tells me I should keep somethings to myself. I still feel the urge to send these thoughts out into the void so they're no longer my problem and in the past I've found it helpful to do so, maybe it will help me again. I've been really feeling the isolation that comes from being neurodivergent lately. I do not have any formal diagnosis though I heavily suspect I'm on the autism spectrum. All my life I've just been excepted to 'figure it out' on my own which means mask like my life depends on it because it does, as a result I'm low needs though I do have my quirks. My isolation stems from the fact that I've had to learn the neurotypical social rules and by learning how to perform and fit in it just makes everything feel so performative and fake to me. Like I'm paranoid that nobody actually likes me they're just obligated…